The Even Series
My life in a series...
Even Here:
Held by Mercy
The first book within the Even Series; Even Here lays the foundation of a raw and transparent story upon longing for God but turning from Him as Paula's choices become blurred through her broken lense of perception and fueled by repetitive mistakes.
Through honest narration, Paula takes readers on a dark, intense journey of her life which leads to true surrender, despite the fact she felt God couldn’t meet her in the broken places she was so desperately seeking Him in.
Spoiler Alert: God did. God does. Not just Even Here, Especially Here.
Readers are met with constant revelations of healing throughout her words as she beckons them to examine their own hearts and their own choices in life.
Ultimately, they are left with a cliff hanger of questions: Does she finally truly surrender to God's plans or is this another part of the cycle? Is her relationship with Mackie really the one from God, or is it just hopeful thinking once again? What will her surrender look like?
Even If:
Faith Forged
in Surrender
Book two of the Even Series, Even If continues Paula's journey of surrender in an on-your-seat story of saying yes to the leading of God as she married Mackie and began to intertwine their five children into a new blended family.
Met with obstacles and laced through heartbreak, soon Paula would learn God wouldn't just ask for one thing at a time from her or her marriage, but He would call her quickly into the deep.
Her surrender quickly snuffs out the repetitive cycles readers experienced in the first book, while keeping their eyes wide and hearts soft at the many "yes'es" she gives to God.
Yes, to going to the Asbury outpouring.
Yes, to selling their two-story home and moving where God would lead.
Yes, to moving out of state to attend a pop-up bible school by a scholar they just met and knew nothing of.
Yes, to going all in and withholding nothing from God.
Yes, to having a child within their marriage despite the many reasons it could become fatal...
However, answering "YES" to God doesn't mean smooth sailing, in fact with every yes Paula faced, she was met with even more ridicule, confusion, abandonment, disgust, and heartbreak.
As tempers flare, rumors are ignited, and loss is held within ballons released to the sky, readers will wipe their eyes as they too begin to question if it was worth it...
Even If is the crescendo of true submission to God as He held her & her family together as He asked, “Even If it doesn’t make sense….Even If it breaks you…Even If you can’t see the end…is your answer still yes?”
Even Now:
Called Into the Fire
The story in which we’re just beginning, as we responded, “YES GOD, EVEN HERE, EVEN IF, EVEN NOW…WE’RE STILL IN!” As we are learning to lean into Him even more as He called us out into ministry & life became a new chaotic! Even Now, God is still calling, God is still asking, God is still testing, God is still showing up…Even Now…